22 August 2008
I am plagued with bad dreams, especially about losing my children. It's been happening with increasing frequency lately. I've been shouting out in my sleep, angry and scared.
It's 5 AM and I just woke up with two very bad back-to-back nightmares. In the first one, Jack was kidnapped. We later found him, but then I had a second one, where all three went missing after Rob left them in his car. We later found them, again, but in the interim were some very scary, sickening moments. I woke up shouting angrily at him about it, then sobbing while he held me. It was a really bad one; I wanted to throw up.
Both times, I was in the eye doctor about to get surgery on my eyes. The only explanation I can think of for that is that I've been thinking more and more about having LASIK done...
Anyway, I needed to get up and 'talk' about it, get it off my chest, so I could go back to sleep. Hopefully I'll be able to now.